Strobe

I don't think I've been this tired since I worked at Denny's

I need to sleep yet I havn't. I should be sleeping now. Instead I'm... awake.

I can't seem to slow down or stop. To keep my mind focused long enough to actually want to sleep.

Instead it just keeps spinning, around and around it keeps going.

Through every little detail, to every little aspect.

It doesn't want to stop, to let go.

It can't.

I can't.

I've been working a bunch of hours too.

Which is good, don't get me wrong. But oh so tiring.

I'm SO tempted to call into work tomorrow morning. SO tempted.

But I won't. I can't/shouldn't.

It won't be so bad, only 10-10.

Not like today, 8-10. :(

I should specify that this is am to pm.

That one boy is still on my mind, constantly. I have to make myself not think about him.

Which is probably bad. But, I'll make it. I always do after all.

I just want to talk to him more is all. But I can't/shouldn't. UGH.

Changing subject.

I feel like a lot of people are how do I say this, opening up to me?

It makes me feel loved/wanted.

But its weird I guess.

IDK. I'm not exactly sure if I'm thinking correctly.

My stomach hurts.... I'm tired...

I want a cig.

Yep, its time to go to sleep.

Goodnight world.

Maybe we'll talk more tomorrow.