I should be asleep.
BUT I'm not.
Instead, I'm online.
Doing honestly, nothing.
I wish someone would talk to me.
I think it would be better.
I also think I'm going to go to sleep.
Since,
Theres nothing better to do.
Innerpartysystem. <3
True Blood. <3>
"I use to think that you were pure,
But now I see that your just empty.
Lie to me, its the new poetry.
Its the language that we speak.
....
You know I love you but you might be the death of me,
hold me down, suffocating, please let me breath.
kiss kiss, lights out, I've got to we've got to
you know I love you but your gonna be the death of me."
One day, nothing else will matter.
There will only be us.
One day.
We'll all die.
And everything will have been a waste.
Except for us.
I'm a hopeless romantic.
I realized this.
Like, really realized this.
I'm in love with love.
And loving.
I just want everyone to be happy.
I feel so... out of place because of this.
The words of my friend come to me now.
"You are the purest person I've ever met."
I think she might have been on to something.
I really want no harm to come to anyone.
Even people I don't like.
I don't want anyone to get hurt.
To cry. Or scream.
I don't understand it.... Unless I'm experiencing it.
Then. It consumes.
Becomes you. You are your emotions.
"I want you to notice,
what you've been missing,
I want you to feel that,
Feel that deep inside of you.
I want you to notice, all of my love,
what you've been missing,
I want you to feel that,
Feel that deep inside of you.
All of my love, all of my love, all of my love, all of my love."
I've also noticed, that my posts have been longer and longer.
As I have more and more to say.
I sometimes feel like my brain literally shuts off.
And for weeks at a time, I'm on auto pilot.
That I'm no longer in control.
I've lost control.
...
And then.
Suddenly, I'm back.
And I wonder where my head has been.
Wonder where I've been.
And realize I wasn't thinking.
"If this night should take my life, we can't go back."
I should talk about my day.
Work was the longest 5 hours of my life.
I was tired, and just not in the mood to work.
And kept losing focus. Talk about ADD.
While, I was put back on track I was sent to clean dishes.
And that went great, until I gashed open my arm with the corner of a
20G tank that slipped from my hands.
Thankfully it didn't break.
BUT, when it hit my arm it started to bruise instantly.
And then a few minutes later started to bleed, and bleed.
And not stop.
It's awesome.
The band aid is still on my arm. D<
My store manager, and told me I could stay till 7.
But I got send home at 4. D<>
So, no lots of money for me.
It was slow and boring.
I was suppose to hang out with Crystal and Kersten.
But I had already told them I couldn't make it.
And didn't feel up to seeing anyone.
EXCEPT, my friend Marco invited me to go eat.
We went to Friday's.
He paid :D
Then he took me to see Eclipse.
I actually liked it. DON'T TELL ANYONE. D<
And I went home. Blogged.
And watched True Blood.
God do I love TB.
Anyways.
Going to Best Buy tomorrow to see if I can get the Evo.
I'm excited.
Good night world.
I love you.
Never change.
Actually...
Change a lot.
you suck.
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