"I love you, though." Heart.

Today has been such an off day.

I got to work in a bad mood and stayed in a bad mood....

For oh... most of the day.

I was just grumpy as hell.

And then depressed...

I thought about him...

And tuxy dying.

Wtf? Tuxy isn't ALLOWED to die.

D<

I'd be devastated.

But over all, work was alright, got super busy at times.

Which I guess is good.

Keeps me busy after all.

Sort of stressed about it.

Sometimes I feel like I can't do anything without it being erased.

Or torn down.

Or redone.

:( I feel pretty useless sometimes.

But customers love me.

And I love my customers.

They are funny. ^^

I'm upset, Crystal cancelled on me. Family stuff. :( I'll never get to see her.

But I'm going to hang with Darien.

Which is just as good.

I love Darien. She makes me smile. :D

Plus, its not like I'll get to see her a lot soon.

Stupid collage. ><;

Its funny, I guess.

I was almost asleep. Then he texted me.

Out of the blue because of my status....

And my heart started to race.

Well, there goes sleeping. Lol.

Its funny how he can make me blissfully happy.

And horrible depressed all within the same day.

I feel hopeless.

At his mercy.

But I guess I gave that to him after all.

I'm going to try and take Darien's advice though. I just.

Gotta let go a little.

Then I think it'll stop hurting.

Maybe.

Least I'm good at hiding it. Right? Lol

Except for people who read my blog.

"Its my world starting now."

I love him.

I know this.

And I'm sure he knows this.

Will I continue to let it handicap me?

Secretly.

Love can make you fly.

You just have to believe.

And it will be the reason behind learning to fly.

Or the means to fly.

You just have to believe.

Then just maybe.

Love can do anything, be anything, transform anyone.

You just have to let it.

I'll smile because you told me to...

And now, I'm going to Dariens.

Where we will watch movies and she shall feed me!

:D

I'm craving some mac n cheese << >>;

In love and... love, :]

Ayla.