Pineapple.

I always told myself I wouldn't drink when things were going wrong.

But I am.

And its not DIRECTLY because I'm upset and such.

But more because its fun.

And I can do it with fun people.

And it helps me move on.

To laugh, not to drink.

Lol.

I love my friends for letting me do this.

^_^

Some days I think the only reason why I function is my friends.

They make me okay with life.

Make me function.

Make me remember to breathe.

Breathe.

I want that tattooed somewhere on me.

Birthday present? ^^

Crystal is currently drawing on my wall.

It makes me happy.

She is the love of my life.

And ALWAYS will be. Forever.

Soul mates?

YEEEEESSS.

She says I am her teenage dream.

I don't exactly understand what that means.

But I will one day I'm sure.

Brennen and Jake were over last night.

I got pretty drunk.

Like, I felt retarded. lol.

But I needed that. Some days, you just need to get smashed.

Lol.

I'm feeling much better anyways. But that could just be all the good feelings I get from my friends.

Oh so happy love-ness of love!

....

I'm a little special.

Jake is over again.

:D

This makes me rather happy.

Hes quiet silly.

My snake is looking at Crystal like he wants to eat her and her paint.

Hehehehehehe.

Disco is so awesome.

HAHA.

DISCO DANCING. ^^

Anywho.

Jake is watching me blog too.

I feel weeeird.

Maybe I shouldn't say what I'm thinking.

"I'm not drunk enough to say what I'm thinking."

:/

I love the things I say sometimes.

I'm rather confused.

About everything.

And Jakes not gay.

But to more pressing matters.

Confused.

I hate break ups because they always put me in a state of confusion.

Which I don't like being in.

BUT, it does help me be decisive.

Because I am a rather indecisive person.

Unless I KNOW what I want. And in which case. I usually get it.

^_^ No matter what....

That sounds creeper... Oh well. :D

I think I need to take more time for myself.

ACTUALLY figure out my problems,

instead of masking them.

Covering them and attempting to forget about them.

Which really hasn't helped me recently.

Like, just last week or the week before... I cried my eyes out in Denny's.

Why? My dad.

And then I saw one of my brothers. :D It made me happy.

But I'm just, I'm not taking care of my problems because I don't know how?

Hm, probably because I'm scared and don't like doing things by my self.

:/ I should get over that.

I've fallen in love with Pet by APC again.

You should all listen and love just as much as I do.

Bwahahaha....

Okay.

Done for now.

NIGHT-ish.