Missing people sucks.

Running thoughts again.

Circling each other.

Depression?

IDK. Happy, happy, happy, happy happy.

CRASH.

His mood changes and so does mine.

I fucking hate being empathic.

It is honestly the worst thing.

Because I am open to everything. And it doesn't help theres so much going on between us.

Its like, its probably not even about me.

But I get upset.

I guess its just because his mood changed once he started texting.

And texted someone all night, and into the next morning.

Jealous? Yeah.... but I'm not going to tell him that.

I don't want to ruin anything.

So that makes me nervous.... Makes me uneasy.

Fucking, I hate my feeling sometimes.

Not to mention, I'm just tired as hell. Maybe I just need to sleep.

After I sleep I will feel better.

><;

I just don't want him to be with me if he doesn't want to be.

You know?

I want him to like me, and sometimes I'm not sure if he does...

Oye.

So frustrating (at times).

But not nearly as bad as Petsmart has been.

I've been getting so annoyed.

But hopefully its going to get better.

I sat down with my friend/co-worker Kersten.

And we wrote a list of everything we could think of.

Everything wrong mostly, and later I added a small list of positives.

><;

But its honestly that bad. Which makes me rather sad.

Oye.

So many emotions. So little energy.

Does that even make sense?

I mean it in that I don't have enough energy to sort it all out.

I miss Darien already. Horribly I miss her. :( I wish she wasn't at school.

And soon Kersten is going to leave.

And I'm going to be even more upset. :(

I loves Kersten. We have SO much fun together. Honestly.

And I miss Crystal.... I know I've been bad about making plans and what not.

But she should keep plans too..... :(

Oye.

So many people to miss. Lol

OH AND TIM! Who I only got to see like, a couple times. :(

Oh Tim.

And Jake. I miss hanging out with Jake. I shall text Jake soon. I feel bad for not texting him the other day. ><;

I'm a bad friend.

Ugh.

And this is where I've run out of things to say because I'm in my own little nothingness.

Goodnight. Sorta.