I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine

Ello.

And how are you doing today?

Thats good. Me you ask?

Well, its 3:19am.

I just finished watching Monsters Inc.

I'm starting to get horribly tired.

And I'm listening to Nickelback atm.

How am I feeling?

Well, I have a shit ton to do tomorrow.

Which includes: laundry, going to get a drug test, dropping and picking my brother up from football camp, going to Baker's Square, hanging out with Crystal & Kersten, cleaning my room, remembering my art stuff, not forgetting to email the lady back about the drug test thing.

OH.

And at work we are having a D.O.G. walk, which basically means that the distract manager is going to come and make sure everything is being done by the book, and if it isn't... WE FAIL.

And well, I'm really hoping we do good. Not amazing. Just good.

Other parts of my life you ask?

Well, I'm not as angry as I was a couple of days ago. Which is always good.

My heart aches to cling to someone and love them like no other.... But it hasn't yet.

I always hold back. Scared? Probably.

But honestly, a REAL relationship? Who am I fooling.

I can barely take care of myself. I'm mostly healthy. But....

Who am I fooling....

But I'd rather not think about that. If I don't think about it. Its not there. ^^

My logic is flawed. I know this.

Thats why its okay.

Family?

Well, like I have stated.

Brother is in football camp. I've been driving him. He seems to enjoy it a lot. ^^

Mother is well, mother. Stupid. Drunk. High. And RETARDED. Theres really no surprise there.

Grandma is doing well, frustrated with my mom, and trying to make it while making everyone happy.

I think everything is getting to everyone.

Probably one of the reasons why I haven't told them I'm taking the job....

Yep.

50-60 hour weeks. HERE I COME.

I'm determined to do it this time.

I have to. I need to. There is no I'll try. Its I will.

Even if I'm horribly unhappy.... That won't matter if everyone else is happy.

Other things....

I miss my best friends. Crystal/Sasha.

I want to hug this special boy, and never let go. :(

I'd love to sleep for 24 hours. I think it would just make everything better.

Its been humid like no other and I sort of want to shoot something.

I can deal with the heat/hotness. Humidity? I don't think so D:

Other then all that....

There is nothing. :]

Just smiles.

Lots of smiles.

^^

Also: this one of my new favorite colors. <3