Ugh.

So I feel sort of bad. I had all these plans of going to work and then sleeping in between. And then when it came down to it, I felt like shit and didn't go to work. My manager was pissed. I could only tell by the way she was like ok bye and hung up.... oops... I didn't meant to piss her off I just really didn't feel good. Its nearly 2 pm and I still have three hours before I have to go to work. Even though I'd much rather sleep I can't afford to upset them by calling off. That could mean the end of my job. Oh boy and can I not have that at all.

I stayed up pretty late and I know that but sometimes you just can't sleep and it gets the better hand. Which is deff. what happened last night. I just couldn't sleep so I stayed up. Not a good idea let me tell you.

Ive been feeling really out of it. As if I'm in my own little world and nothing seems to make sense anymore. I've been running impossible things through my head and I have no idea. I'm just stuck. Circling around in my head.

I think when I start working every day it'll get better. I miss work. It keeps me from going crazy.

And most of all I miss the people.

Money is tight again, but I feel like that its always tight... I never get a break.

I wish I had more money so that I could help the loveofmylife. She needs it and I can't help her. :(

I loves her. <3

I had a scare in thinking Mucho was going to die.

He just wasn't looking good and I got really scared and panicked and put him under a light thinking thats what he needed.

I'd cry my eyes out if Mucho died.

Otherwise not a lot on my plate. Maybe more will happen as the week progresses.

Until then.

Goodnight. <3