I will have a stable fer sure steady full time job with benefits.
(Which I basically already have, I just need to wake up on time :/)
((But I have an alarm clock now! So its all good. ^^))
I will move out and be free of this house.
I will have less stress in my life.
And anyone who doesn't support me, can get the fuck out of my life.
Because honestly, I don't need any negitivity.
At all.
I want to get on the right path of stress FREE.
I need it.
I'm scared I'm breaking out in hives. AGAIN.
From what you ask? Stress is my guess.
I just.
BREATHE.
The whole reason I want this tattoo.
Breathe ayla.
Me and said boyfriend are on a break.
I need it. I can't trust him, can't function.
Can barely breath when I think about what he could be doing.
And I can't do that to myself anymore.
Its not worth it. Nothing is worth that.
If I can't trust someone I'm that intimate with.
There is nothing. It can be called nothing.
Everything is based on trust.
Everything.
Without that, whats the point?
I'm not totally sure he understands this.
But I'm not doing this for him, I'm doing it for me.
And me alone.
Family has gone crazy hence the rush to get the FUCK out of here.
Can't deal with their shit anymore.
And... I lost interest in writing. Lol.
Listen to
Porn Star Dancing by My Darkest Days.
Its basically an orgasm in your ears.
:D
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