"Holla!"

Currently obsessed with the song OMG by Usher ft. Will I Am.

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Today was a good day. I didn't fight with anyone, got a decent amount of work done in the 3 hours and 45 minutes I worked. Saw the boyfriend and hung out with my grandma and brother.

I made mac n cheese for everyone. Bwahaha.

Also made boyfriend and grandma watch America's Next Top Model. Hehehe, I win.

THEN: later hung out with Darien and Frank at Ihop. lol. Great times. "Holla!"

We were the ONLY ones in there for a good portion of the time. It was epic.

They make me smile. :] --dinosaur smile!

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Why do I have such awesome people in my life?

Only regret is not seeing the loveofmylife Crystal.

But I will fix that soon of course.

Otherwise I am super stressed about money. Next week is gonna be pretty tight. But not as bad as this week....

After bills and gas I'll have roughly $60 dollars to my name....

Fuuuck. :( Idk what to do anymore.

Should I resort to working nights again? It will probably kill me and I'll end up getting sick again... But I need money's!

ALSO. My mom's in the hospital again... Her pancreatitis is flaring up again. Except that she hasn't stopped drinking. And even her doctor asked her if she was an idiot or something.

I'm starting to think that this is her way of killing herself.... The slow and painful way....

IDK what to do anymore. I'm just so upset with her. I already lost my father and now if she doesn't take care of herself my grandma says it COULD turn into cancer.

And well, that sort of cancer is almost always fatal.

WTF? My moms retarded.... Or doesn't love us enough to live....

But I'd much rather think shes just retarded....

:(

On the plus side the loveofmylife Crystal bought me another betta. <3>

He hangs above my bed. hehehehe

Ily crystal and betta.

My text is the color of my coffee when I put too much cream in it. <3>