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I would find a way to blog on the go too. Trying it out so well see what happens. Currently getting over this horrible 24 hour bug were I proceeded to puke my brains out and sleep basically all day. And other things I won't torture to tell you. Still moving out in December :) umm work is still same old. I felt horrible about calling out today. Not to mention I can't afford to not have the hours . Ugh well its 1 and I am sleepy. Goodnight <3

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Porn Star Dancing. :D

If things work out the way they want them to...

I will have a stable fer sure steady full time job with benefits.

(Which I basically already have, I just need to wake up on time :/)

((But I have an alarm clock now! So its all good. ^^))

I will move out and be free of this house.

I will have less stress in my life.

And anyone who doesn't support me, can get the fuck out of my life.

Because honestly, I don't need any negitivity.

At all.

I want to get on the right path of stress FREE.

I need it.

I'm scared I'm breaking out in hives. AGAIN.

From what you ask? Stress is my guess.

I just.

BREATHE.

The whole reason I want this tattoo.

Breathe ayla.

Me and said boyfriend are on a break.

I need it. I can't trust him, can't function.

Can barely breath when I think about what he could be doing.

And I can't do that to myself anymore.

Its not worth it. Nothing is worth that.

If I can't trust someone I'm that intimate with.

There is nothing. It can be called nothing.

Everything is based on trust.

Everything.

Without that, whats the point?

I'm not totally sure he understands this.

But I'm not doing this for him, I'm doing it for me.

And me alone.

Family has gone crazy hence the rush to get the FUCK out of here.

Can't deal with their shit anymore.

And... I lost interest in writing. Lol.

Listen to

Porn Star Dancing by My Darkest Days.

Its basically an orgasm in your ears.

:D

Pokemon.

Confused. Torn. Happy. Rage.

Too many emotions for one body.

I can't do this anymore. I can't. I'm going to EXPLODE.

See?

This is me exploding. BOOOM

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.

The end.

Jk. Haha.

I honestly, don't even feel like writing everything I feel out.

Just all way too much.

So.

I'm going off to play Pokemon now.

^^ Yay Pokemon.

Anger = CRUSHED.... sorta

I really need to get my anger under control.

Its getting to the point that I can't handle it in public. Which is NOT a good thing.

Its just, I want to punch things.

And yes I do have a good reason today.

My phone was broken, I sent it in through Best Buy to get it fixed.

That was more then a month ago.

WTF. They told me it would take two weeks, mind you I expected it to take three.

But MORE THEN A MONTH?

Wtf.

And its not even like they were nice and helpful.

I always had to call or go in to find out what the hell was going on.

And they never had any answers.

Or seemed to want to figure this out for me.

Like, I WORK IN RETAIL BITCHES.

START DOING YOUR JOB!!

Ugh.

Stupid people.

And if its STILL not fixed.

I am going to a DIFFERENT best buy.

And getting a new phone.

D<

Stupid Best Buy.

Anyways. I'm currently, as I type this. Watching my geckos.

I just introduced the male into the female cage.

So far... nothing. He sort of spazed it seemed, but otherwise hasn't made any advances.

I'm scared that maybe she isn't ready. And he can smell that and wants nothing to do with her.

:(

My poor Venus might get rejected!!!

....

I'm putting way too many human emotions into this.

Lol. :D

Still nothing....

Lol I'm like worried.

What if something happens.

What if I don't see it.

I WANT TO SEE IT.

Lol, thats so gross.

Hehe.

None the less.

No moves have been made. We shall see what happens.

Later yall. <3

Grow a pair.

At this point in time. I could beat his face in without a blink of the eye.

Honestly, grow a pair. If your pissed at me, for doing something in my life.

That you don't control.

Tell me. Don't avoid me. Don't ignore me. Fucking tell me.

Like, this whole thing pisses me off to no end.

I get it. You don't like I'm dating him. Got it. But your just gonna stop being my friend?

I thought you were better then that. I thought we had more history to let something like this happen.

Like. I would expect you to give me endless amounts of shit for it. And to voice your dislike,

Loudly and Clearly.

This I expect.

However, what your doing. I do not.

Ugh whatever. Honestly, just whatever.

I'm happy. You should be too if you cared.

Hard week next week. A lot of early mornings. But, I CAN DO IT!

...

I hope.

Driving school too. ><;

Oh joy.

Other stuff that I don't feel like typing out and stuffs.

Ugh, going off to read before sleep.

Night